I used to be a vicious workaholic.
This is one of the reasons why I gained 67 pounds extra weight in the past.
I used to be under constant stress at levels which stopped being funny…
I used to be consciously afraid all the time…
Afraid of Something…
The name of this Something was Failure.
Yet through this “highly functional” constant state of panic, thank God, I managed to hear Coco’s voice.
“The question,”- she said, – “is not how much you can handle before you break. The question is how much you can handle once you have broken.”
She also said: “Find mentors who are successful at what you want to do. Learn from them. Do it.”
And to top it off she said: “Say NO often”.
And I broke.
And I learned that breaking may as well be the beginning of healing…
At the moment that I had nothing to lose – everything became crystal clear.
Everything changed its colors.
It felt as if I was being born to a different reality. Real time.
I felt this transformation real time.
It is a paradox, but at the moment I had nothing to lose – fear left.
And once shades of perceived importance fall down,
The only true thing left was my family and friends.
I went and found few mentors.
The kind of mentors who have done it before.
Not the other kind.
I fired the other kind.
I started saying NO instead of saying nothing.
I accepted full commitment.
And fired everybody who did not.
I still like working.
Not in the way which made me all burned out and obese.
I like working in the way which makes me full of warmth to share, which makes me all slender and svelte.
Warm, slender and svelte, like Coco.